Abandonment issues
Posted on: September 16, 2012
So today I was doing some research on abandonment issues. I clearly have these issues and they have affected several relationships in my lifetime.
I believe abandonment issues are what has kept me in such an empty marriage for so long. I have a very real FEAR of being alone and I justify staying in my marriage because “it’s better than nothing” type logic.
In reading today I came across an interesting subject that insinuated infants who spent time in an incubator instead of in their parents touch at the beginning of life oftentimes exhibit abandonment issues. I had a lightbulb wonder moment as I was born a month premature and spent several days in an incubator when I was born.
Having abandonment issues sucks. It’s a fear of trusting people. It’s an inability to believe in people. It’s an automatic assumption people WILL hurt/leave you. It’s pessimism personified.
I know these issues are part of me and they are fixable. They have caused me to lose someone I love very much. I know I have things to work on inside myself and I can’t fix everything overnight, but I can surely hope to find the strength to learn a little more about “the real” me each day.
I am an incredible person. I deserve love, and I will find it again some day. I will find that person who never wants to leave me – starting with myself.
smrisme 
September 17, 2012 at 2:04 pm
This was a very powerful piece. We are all incredible, and we each deserve love. Good luck your journey of self discovery!