smrisme

It’s not something I ever share with anyone but I used to think about suicide a lot when I was younger. I likely would have heavily contemplated it after my mom died but for having the kids at that moment.

Today the thoughts of suicide returned for the first time in a very long time. Feeling like I have nothing to live for, like I’m alone, like I’m completely overwhelmed.

It’s not like this is a subject you can really talk about with others because they just tell u how silly you’re being, yet my feelings are real and telling me I’m silly kind of reinforces the solitude I feel.

Shrug.