smrisme

Yep, that’s where I am living. Ultra Sensitive USA, population me.

I am trying to make plans and figure things out financially. I am trying to take steps for me and the kids to move out. I am trying I stay positive, but this all seems like such a daunting task.

For five days now I have been trying to get rid of my car I got in December. Being that it’s so new and I put zero down, I am upside down. Trying to find a dealer to help me bury four thousand dollars of negative equity has been a blast <;—- that was sarcasm.

I am going from a crossover SUV with a third row seat to a compact car. It's going to be a huge adjustment especially because I will be stuck in this car for five years and I will have two teenagers by then who will have to squeeze in the back seat with their then seven year old brother – ugh.

Trying to lower my payment, gas consumption and insurance payment all in one. There is a method to my madness, if only I can get someone to work with me and help me.

All of this has caused me a lot of stress. I don't feel supported at all, and am bearing the stress of all of this poorly. I know it but I can't change it either. I broke down and cried at one salesmen, talk about uncomfortable.

I am also crying at night, haven't slept in days, and I have lost three pounds since Saturday.

I have to get rid of the car by this weekend so I can avoid the $454 payment and $315 tags that are both due next week. If I can do that then that will save me about a thousand dollars before the first payment on the new car would be due. A thousand dollars towards moving out and divorce.

There is a method to my madness