smrisme

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Yep, that’s where I am living. Ultra Sensitive USA, population me.

I am trying to make plans and figure things out financially. I am trying to take steps for me and the kids to move out. I am trying I stay positive, but this all seems like such a daunting task.

For five days now I have been trying to get rid of my car I got in December. Being that it’s so new and I put zero down, I am upside down. Trying to find a dealer to help me bury four thousand dollars of negative equity has been a blast <;—- that was sarcasm.

I am going from a crossover SUV with a third row seat to a compact car. It's going to be a huge adjustment especially because I will be stuck in this car for five years and I will have two teenagers by then who will have to squeeze in the back seat with their then seven year old brother – ugh.

Trying to lower my payment, gas consumption and insurance payment all in one. There is a method to my madness, if only I can get someone to work with me and help me.

All of this has caused me a lot of stress. I don't feel supported at all, and am bearing the stress of all of this poorly. I know it but I can't change it either. I broke down and cried at one salesmen, talk about uncomfortable.

I am also crying at night, haven't slept in days, and I have lost three pounds since Saturday.

I have to get rid of the car by this weekend so I can avoid the $454 payment and $315 tags that are both due next week. If I can do that then that will save me about a thousand dollars before the first payment on the new car would be due. A thousand dollars towards moving out and divorce.

There is a method to my madness

How was your Christmas?  Mine was good, thanks for asking. J

 

Friday we got off of work early, so I spent my afternoon at a car dealership.  Fun (not.) I bought myself a new car, YAY me!  My lease was running out on my car, so I had been test driving for about a week or so.  I was looking for a cross-over type vehicle and three women I know all have husbands who sell cars, so I knew it would come from one of them, since I detest car salesmen and can’t fathom dealing with a “stranger.”  I ended up getting an incredible deal at the lot where my niece works.  It’s nice to walk into a dealership and buy a $25,000.00 car with no money down… BALLIN!

 

I ended up getting the Mazda CX-9.  Eight-seater with plenty of room for me and the kids and if we travel anywhere we have plenty of room for bags and crap in the back also.  I really like it because it drives and handles like a car, and not a truck, or SUV.  The only thing it doesn’t have that my Jetta did is heated seats.  My cold little butt (yes my butt has slowly disappeared) is freezing in the morning too.  Losing weight makes you sooooooooooooooo cold, and I miss those seats already. YAY for losing weight and being freezing!

 

Christmas eve we went to my bestie’s house.  I’m so glad her family welcomes me and treats me like family because without them I would have no where to go, and they remind me of what a REAL family should be like…. Not the people I was born into.  I still don’t understand how I ended up so different than them?  Anyway…. We did food, presents, and games and I drove home with a smile, YAY for smiling!

 

Christmas day was nice.  Kids were excited, got everything they asked for and more.  My husband bought me everything on my wish list except one gift card I asked for, YAY for getting things on your wish list!

 

I cooked a large meal.  My niece and her boyfriend came over to eat, and my dad came and visited in the morning while we did presents, then came back for dinner.  Then we spent the evening watching a movie. YAY for new movies and a new blue-ray player!

 

The day after Christmas I went to our local florist who has the most amazing trees and decorations.  They always have a huge sale and I always go there on the 26th.  I got just a few items since our tree is packed already with ornaments.  YAY for awesome new ornaments!

 

Afterwards I ran some errands and ended up in a very interesting place.  I went to see HER.  My husband’s girlfriend on the side.  I know where she works and knew she would be working the day after Christmas.  I get to the place, I walk in and she immediately walked up to me.  She said “hi, can I help you find anything?”  And then I punched her in the face…. Oh wait… that was my dream.  I replied “no, not at all.” And she said “ok then, alright then” and walked away.  My knees were shaking, I could barely walk, I got goosebumps, and I just wanted to start cussing her out, but it takes two to tango and this is not all her fault.  YAY for doing the Tango!

 

I feel better now that I saw her in person.  I feel better knowing that she is ugly, and fatter than me.  I feel better knowing that she has the fat legs where her cellulite cakes under her butt cheeks, I feel better knowing that her voice is annoying, I feel better knowing that she works in a job where she feels the need to wear a nametag that says MANAGER in huge letters instead of her name because it probably makes her feel better about herself.  I feel better knowing that I know something both her and him don’t know.  YAY for one-uping the assholes!

 

Anyway, so busy at work… sooooooo sooooo busy.  Enough work for three people in my desk alone.  We are all swamped, but we are all employed, and that’s a good thing.  Now, to finish out another short week.  YAY for short weeks!

 

Lastly, pineapple isn’t as tart as it used to be and has started tasting better again.  YAY for pineapple!



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  • smrisme: If she didn't know I was hurting that would be one thing, but she knows. She called earlier and heard me crying. Since then, no call, no text to check
  • foreverlostgirl23: I'd say don't let her get to you but, seems she already had. I'm sorry though your not alone. I hope things get better you can email me if u need to t
  • smrisme: I just fear a lack of human connection will make our generation unbelievably cold and out of touch

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